Une journée dans la vie d'un schizophrène

I hardly got visual hallucinations. They mostly occured when Victoria, my fiancee died. I saw her many times in the street, wearing the same leather jacket smiling at me.
I freaked out when I saw her.
The truth now is that it was other girls smiling at me.
I don't know if I still love her. My emotional shallowness makes me feel uncertain about my true feelings for people. At the same time, being emotionally flat confers so much inner peace.